Was Jesus Fearful of Death? What Early Christian Said about the Agony in the Garden

Agony in the Garden

Adam and David reflect on what some of the Church Fathers and early Christian saints said about Jesus in the Agony of the Garden.

In this episode we discuss:

  • The meaning of the location of the garden
  • Was Jesus fearful of death?
  • The meaning behind Jesus 3 times telling the apostles to pray in the garden
  • Christ’s prayers in the garden

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Agony In The Garden

David Niles: [00:00:00] Warning. The Catholic Man Show contains high levels of manliness. If you think you may be too weak to withstand the manliness represented in the following program, please do yourself a favor and stop listening now. If you choose to continue in spite of this warning, If at any time you feel yourself overcome by the manliness, stop immediately and consult your closest medical professional.

And now, for the not so fair, faint, or frilly, we present the Catholic Men’s Show.

Adam Minihan: Welcome to the Catholic man show. We’re on the Lord’s team, the winning side. I 

David Niles: was 

Adam Minihan: trying to figure out like how to [00:01:00] say, have a good holy week. You know the people? In Latin? No, just like in English. 

David Niles: You should ask Google Translate. Yeah, 

Adam Minihan: because that always works. Yeah, it’s been, it’s hit home runs for us every time we’ve done that.

So many times. But I was like, you know, have an efficacious Holy Week. No, that doesn’t, like, that isn’t right. Like, have an intense Holy Week. I don’t, I don’t know, like, may you suffer well, 

David Niles: like, maybe a I mean, it sounds like the question you’re asking really is, like, I have wondered the same thing about Lent.

Yeah, you know because it’s kind of the same thing. Yeah, like but specifically 

Adam Minihan: for a holy week huh, right as we’re entering into the holiest week of the year 

David Niles: I mean it’s like but it’s really a question of a distinction of degrees not kind, right? In what you’re like because if it was true about Lent, it’s definitely true now.

Yes, right And so I used to say I used to say something I think I used to say like maybe it was efficacious and efficacious Lent to you 

Adam Minihan: But like that just doesn’t hit, you know, it’s like, I don’t know, like have an intensely prayerful whole [00:02:00] week. It was like for a 

David Niles: while. It’s like, this is years ago. It’s like kind of down with the happy Lent, have a happy, happy Lent.

And you know, I hope you do have a happy Lent, but that’s not like the thing I want to wish you. About Lent. Like, to me, like, the thing that is essential to Lent isn’t that it’s happy. It’s happiness. Yeah. Right. You know, sort of like Easter would It’s not, it’s not, Lent’s 

Adam Minihan: charism, so to speak. 

David Niles: Right, exactly.

Yeah, it’s not it’s charism. That’s exactly right. Whereas Easter, on the other hand, is like Joyful! Joyous! Yeah, like so, well, but, if I can remember it before the end of the episode, I will You’ll, and I will just Cut us off. Stop, absolutely halt whatever it is we’re saying about, saying at the time.

Perfect. And just Throw it in. Yeah. And we’ll see. Okay. And then we can carry on. 

Adam Minihan: I’m very excited to enter into the Easter season. Dude, me too. I cannot wait. It’s gonna be so awesome. The beautiful thing about fasting is that you get to feast. You know, there’s, there’s seasons of feasting. Yeah. And if you fast well, you get to feast [00:03:00] well.

You know, like, feasting, like, It means more. 

David Niles: Yeah, and it’s great that we have, I think Palm Sunday is just, you know, the Church’s liturgical calendar is a work of art, I think. We’re in the middle of, you know, at the middle of Lent, towards the end of Lent, now entering into the most penitential week of the year, but we have Palm Sunday first, which is like the celebration of Jesus entering tri, you know, triumphantly into Jerusalem, you know, to, like, this is a, this is a Sunday to really feast.

Amidst all Sundays, as we celebrate Christ’s triumphant you know, like, entrance into Jerusalem. Yeah. It’s like a, a real victory. It’s a, a day of victory. So, and that’s a beautiful thing to have right here before we go into the most penitential week of the year. Yeah. 

Adam Minihan: Yeah. Well, when we commit deicide, [00:04:00] 

David Niles: which is bad.

It’s bad. It’s a bad It’s one of our Well, it’s not good, Adam. 

Adam Minihan: It’s one of the ugliest marks for 

David Niles: humankind. Well, let’s see how it works out for him, Cotton. 

Adam Minihan: Oh, man. Okay, so hey, we are Bold strategy. Bold strategy, yeah, but it turns out it, it was 

David Niles: It’s, it seemed like a bad, it seemed like a fail, and then it turned out to be a pretty, you know, like, I imagine that’s how it was for Satan.

Don’t you think that Satan thought, like, as he watched Christ hanging on the cross, don’t you think he thought he was winning, or something? I imagine that that was a Yeah, probably some Like a big bait and switch. On the devil. Yeah, you know like when all of a sudden he realized what he’s back. I was like rooting for him like I, you know, like, deceived one of his own apostles, his, like, inner circle, into betraying him [00:05:00] and getting him killed.

And now Only to realize, that’s what’s the, that, you know, like, AGH! 

Adam Minihan: Now the gates of heaven are all open. Right, yeah, it’s like, that’s a big backfire. That is, yeah. So this evening, you know what’s not a big backfire, is this whiskey we’re having this evening. It’s so good. Wyoming whiskey, we’ve had Wyoming whiskey on the show several times, this is the double cask.

I gotta tell you, my dad actually asked me, he was going to a friend’s house not too long ago, and he said, hey, what’s a good bourbon that’s not very expensive to bring over to their house? And I said, listen, and we get this question a lot from people, they email us or text us or something like that, asking us, hey, what’s a bourbon?

Here’s my go tos, okay? So for bourbons, If you can find Wyoming whiskey, 

David Niles: that’s the, that’s the win. Hard to find here in Oklahoma, a little bit. It, you can, you, you can find it, but. It’s, it’s cheap, you know, it’s. So what was this, like 35, maybe 40 bucks? Yeah, it’s under 40 for sure. Yeah, and this is the double cask.

Right. The, the regular is even [00:06:00] cheaper. And it’s so 

Adam Minihan: smooth. And it’s so good. Yeah, so my dad couldn’t find Wyoming whiskey. Cause it’s hard to find, like you mentioned. Yeah, 

David Niles: in other states, the closer you get to Wyoming. If you’re in Wyoming, this is at every grocery store, it’s at every liquor store, and it’s like 30 bucks.

Yeah. It’s really cheap. 

Adam Minihan: So I told them like, Wyoming whiskey is a good one. 1792, I really like. Yeah. It’s one that has a great presentation bottle. It’s a cheaper whiskey. The whiskey is good. It’s smooth. It doesn’t have a harsh bite. It’s not, it’s not 

David Niles: like, uberly complex. Right. But it’s, but it’s good.

It’s a easy drinking. Right. Yeah. Not going to offend anybody. Everyone’s going to enjoy it and have a good time. Buffalo Trace is 

Adam Minihan: another one. Eagle Rare is another one. You know, there’s, there’s several. Anyway, it was really funny because he got there, he brought 1792. He got there, somebody else had brought a Wyoming whiskey, and so he had a chance to try both.

Huh. And he said, he really liked the 1792, but he said, the Wyoming whiskey was just so smooth. Yeah. And so 

David Niles: It [00:07:00] really is, and everything I’ve had from them is all good. Yeah. Every single 

Adam Minihan: thing. This one is, so again, double cask, it’s a straight bourbon whiskey finished in sherry casks, so it has a little sweetness at the end there, which is nice because it’s you know 50 percent ABV.

The whiskey gets its color and character from the cask in which it ages and matures. This double cask whiskey goes through the process twice. The first five years in the barrel makes it a bourbon. The sherry cask adds a nice touch of sweetness and brings out the best in the spirit to deliver superior smoothness and drinkability.

You can drink it on ice with twist. And anything nice. 

David Niles: You know, okay. That is another thing I don’t, I’m not a ice in my whiskey guy. But if you have every now and then you want to make a drink and if you, all you have are nice scotches and expensive bourbons. You’re not going to want to make, well you might make an old fashioned out of a nice, a nice [00:08:00] bourbon, but this is a whiskey that I’m not afraid to, oh yeah, like, mix in a drink, because it just, it doesn’t cost very much, right, so like sure, whatever, even though I’m I always drink it neat and straight, like a man.

It’s so good. 

Adam Minihan: So we’re on the Lord’s team. The winning side. 

David Niles: So raise your glass. Cheers to Jesus. Cheers. And the last thing I’ll say about Wyoming whiskey is it’s just kind of a cool story. It’s not like a story of ancient tradition, like every single whiskey distiller tries to present themselves.

Right. Basically it’s all made in this tiny town in Wyoming. And I think they Yeah, I think they employ like Almost the entire town, like almost everybody there because it’s a, it’s a small town. distillery. And so it really is become like a local, you know, everybody’s really proud of the product that they make there.

Yeah. You just like to see that. Yeah. 

Adam Minihan: Big news for the, [00:09:00] the David ranch, the Niles ranch. We have 

David Niles: chicks. Yes. Just yesterday and today they started hatching. There are still four eggs that The broody hen is sitting on. We’ll see if they hatch. Okay. It’s been exciting. Yeah. You know, between having piglets and now baby chicks I did want to ask for prayers because I, if I can borrow a trailer, if, If my buddy Robert who is a loyal, he’s your, we’re, our buddy Robert, one of the best guys, I mean, really, and he also has a nice trailer that he lets me borrow anytime I want, and I just text him this evening, like, hey, can I borrow your trailer tomorrow, and I haven’t heard back from him yet, but the Cattle Auction is tomorrow, okay, and if you guys remember the story about the last time I went to the Cattle Auction, the hilarious debacle, yes, I’m about trying to, trying to buy, I don’t know what you call [00:10:00] it.

Deformed is maybe the best, the most, the politest word I can think of to describe this cow. But it’s really cheap, right? So, I just would like prayers that I don’t humiliate myself again. 

Adam Minihan: Or, That you do for the sake of your 

David Niles: humility. And if I do, if I do humiliate myself, that I get a lot of traction out of it.

You know, that I, that I really, really lean into it, and like it makes a big difference in my life. And just appreciate it. Yeah, that it’s like something that really, Helps me grow. to God. Yeah, exactly, and isn’t wasted as just a humiliating moment in a funny story. I’m 

Adam Minihan: okay with either. Yeah. So for the Minnehands, we we just had our first flag football scrimmage this week.

All right. I’m the coach. In a league? Yeah, we’re in league. Okay. I’m the head coach. Our good friend, Blake Berger, is the assistant coach. [00:11:00] Good. We have a lot of work to do. Yeah, we have a lot of work to do. The plays in which we drew it, so I got pretty intense, maybe a little too intense some would say.

Okay. Drew up a lot of plays. All the kids had wristbands. Plays were on the wristbands. Holding them up. Telling them like colors. We hadn’t practiced yet. The first scrimmage was like the practice. So there was some frustration on my part. Yeah. Cause 

David Niles: it’s Forgot to go over like positions. 

Adam Minihan: Yeah. Yeah. They didn’t Oh yeah.

No, it’s just defense. Yeah. So we’re gonna work through that. But, it should be, it should be a fun year. 

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Welcome back to the Catholic Man Show, I’m David Niles. Here with Adam Minahan, we’re drinking a delicious Irish bourbon.

I’m just kidding. Obviously. But I did want to talk about the St. Patrick’s Day party we threw at St. Benedict’s here in Broken Arrow. It was a rager. It was. It was awesome. A ton of people there. Yes. This is, I want to, I just want to tell, this is a hilarious story, so I just wanted to share it. I [00:13:00] wasn’t part of this conversation, but it was relayed to me by my father.

He’s a very trustworthy man, okay? Except when he tells stories, usually. But in this case, I’m pretty sure, as one who has a lifetime of experience curating truth, I’m From falsehood amidst his stories, I’m pretty sure this one’s true. Father John O’Neill, good Irish Catholic priest we have here in the Diocese of Tulsa in Eastern Oklahoma, he was there playing some music.

Yes. So, he was sitting there talking to some other priests, and they were, like, just joking with each other about how, like, their own, like, ability to bless. And one of the priests made the comment, like, Oh man, I don’t know if mine makes it much further than, like, ten feet. I’m And you know, like, I just, you know, I just can’t do it, I mean, ten feet, that’s about my max, as far as I can, my blessing just doesn’t reach further than that.

And another guy was like, I think mine goes, like, probably thirty yards. And then Father John O’Neill was like, you guys gotta work on [00:14:00] this. Mine goes a long way. I mean, like, hundreds and hundreds of yards. And he actually said, like, watch, and there was a, he pointed to a guy, Way far away, and he’s like watch this and he made the sign of the cross and like blessed him and as soon as he did The dude fell over

And they all just like lost it, you know, like that’s awesome like Right. I do need to talk about like don’t you wish you were there? Yeah to see that happen like watch, you know make the sign of the cross and just dude 

Adam Minihan: falls over Also shout out to our daughters who did A superb job. Yeah. 

David Niles: They were the highlight of the show 

Adam Minihan: Of Irish dancing at the.


David Niles: Anna, Anna is looking good. Like, her form She’s, she’s getting there, yeah. Like, she is I hadn’t seen her dance since when, kind of when we got started. Yeah. And so, like, the other day, when, when I was there, like, man, [00:15:00] she’s She’s picking it up. Like, she looks like 

Adam Minihan: An 

David Niles: Irish dancer. Yeah, I mean Yeah, she’s picking it up.

She definitely has better, like, posture, and it’s, a lot of it is in the posture. 

Adam Minihan: Especially in Irish dance. In Irish dance, specifically, yeah. The postures were very key, right, because they weren’t supposed to be, like, Irish dance kind of became a thing because they weren’t allowed to dance, and so they, so, you know, they couldn’t move their hands around as they’re, as they’re dancing, so they always kept their 

David Niles: hands.

Because it was, there were penal laws established that actually forbade dancing. Right, right. And so they, they ended up, you know, There are several theories about the development of Irish dance. This one says that they developed a style of dance that made it look like they weren’t dancing. Very upright.

I’m not dancing, I’m just kicking my feet. Almost like you have plausible deniability. Were you dancing? Does it look like I was dancing? What do you I’m not sure what 

Adam Minihan: you were doing. Yeah, so anyway someday [00:16:00] maybe if they’re listening to our show years down the road, which I think 

David Niles: they will We’re very proud of you.

If they don’t listen to our show someday, then what are we even doing? Then they’re bad children Taking you out of their will. 

Adam Minihan: Yeah. Okay. You want to get into that? Oh, yes. Oh before we do really fast Just real quick. We have a lot of things going on for our patreon that we’re doing And indeed if you guys listen to that last week’s episode, we’re giving away prayer candles, 10 inch tapered prayer candles, 100 percent beeswax by ambrosian candles.

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Adam Minihan: With lasers. With lasers. Yeah. And then we’re also having a Ask a Theologian.

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I wanna do that. So anyway, okay. So tonight we’re I wanted to, to talk about the agony in the garden. I wanted to talk about Jesus in the agony in the garden. I thought it was fitting, being [00:18:00] that we’re in Holy week. The agony in the garden has always for me, like been the most real for me out of this whole passion.

Like even when you’re, I’m praying the sorrowful mysteries, the rosary, like the, that mystery is the one that’s actually the most real to me. 

David Niles: It’s, it’s see for me, I would say that’s the scourging. The scourging is very, yeah, 

Adam Minihan: it’s, but like the scourging is absolutely real, right? Easy to meditate on because you almost like feel it like as you’re 

David Niles: yeah But I think the suffering involved in the scourging is the most Excessive like I think it’s the most understandable this like this the what the profundity of the suffering in the agony of the garden It’s just less, it’s less apparent, right?

Even like the carrying of the cross is something that you have to think about a lot more before you, like, really come to, like, Oh, what that suffering really is. [00:19:00] Yeah, that’s interesting. And I’ve never been crucified. Right. So, that one’s also not, like, You know, I have to really use my imagination. So do you think 

Adam Minihan: that the intensity of suffering lies more in a physical suffering 

David Niles: or?

No, no, no, not, no, certainly. For Christ it was, it was, I don’t know if you’d call it mental, maybe mental suffering, but an emotional suffering. Like tonight we’re talking about the agony of the garden. To me, the agony, I think the closest analogy I can come to in my life has been that moment when like, If you, if like someone breaks up with you or like a relationship ends that you don’t want to, you know, you have this intense love for somebody else.

Mm hmm. Who is rejecting you. Mm hmm. And just the, the heartache that that brings along. To me, that, I kind of think about that as a good, you know, bait, like dipping your baby toe in the water of what is the agony in the [00:20:00] garden. I think that’s good. Because I think Christ’s suffering in that moment was, I mean, and we’ll get into it tonight because it’s, it’s not just one thing, but a lot of it was him holding the entirety of his creation in his mind, with an infinite love for every single one of them, and just being bitterly aware in that moment, in a special way, about every single one who would reject him.

And his suffering would be Was born out of his love for those people and myself included because I have I’ve I have been that man Far too many times, you know, just how much he loves us in that moment Amidst that total rejection. 

Adam Minihan: Isn’t it interesting how love and suffering The intensity, like, of both, [00:21:00] like, intensifies the other.

Yeah. That there’s, like, the more that you can love something, the more that, you know, there’s more suffering involved. The more you suffer something, the more you can love something. 

David Niles: Right. Yeah, it increases your capacity for both. 

Adam Minihan: Yeah. As you grow. Yeah, so it’s very interesting. One of the things that I always 

David Niles: thought of That’s why I like the cross.

The cross is always involved in love. Right. Because if you do love someone, You’re basically bringing the cross more and more into your life. Now, maybe that person won’t wound you the person you’re loving is not perfect, and so they, eventually they will, in small ways or big ways, you know, so the more, yeah, but the more you love, and that’s why people, that’s why you know, and everybody knows people like this, who just, you know, Close themselves off.

Right. Yeah, which is so sad. And which is, which is a defense mechanism, and you know, I don’t think that they always are choosing to do it, but that is not the Christian life. Right. The Christian life calls us to embrace that cross and embrace the suffering that comes along with a deeper and deeper love for everyone.

Adam Minihan: That’s right. Yeah, so as we’re in a Holy Week, [00:22:00] I think there’s a couple things that you can do to kind of make your Holy Week more efficacious, or more intense, or whatever the word is that we’re, or phrase we’re going to use. One being that you should watch the Passion of the Christ, maybe with your beloved.

Yeah. I think that’s always something that, that’s something that Haley and I do every year for Holy Week. Yeah. And it really brings home, it really creates this, like, here’s what really happened. But another thing is obviously to read the Gospels, especially the Passion, right? So, if you have Matthew, Mark, and Luke all focus on have a different type of narrative, so to speak, than John does, right?

So John typically focuses more on the divinity of Jesus. Matthew, Mark, and Luke typically focus on the kind of the human aspect, or the, the the divine and the human aspect of Jesus, but John is really focused on the divine aspect 

David Niles: of Jesus, right? He’s pretty clear that John had the, I mean, he had the other Gospels when he was writing his.

Right, yeah. So it was, in many ways, in a, [00:23:00] an addition, you know, like a, Like, hey, let me, let me, now that you know this, let me, let me add that. Right. Yeah. 

Adam Minihan: Add to it. Build on pawn. Right. So so, what, some of the things to think about. So let’s, let’s go through. So, so Jesus is now, he’s gone through the Passover, right?

And so one of the things I was reading about Preparing for this is you know at the Passover the the small tea tradition of this that where the Passover happened is actually where Mark was Mark’s house his parents house Yeah, it was his parents 

David Niles: house. It was his parents house and it became his house 

Adam Minihan: his family’s house his family’s house Yeah, which was very interesting, right?

Yeah, but when we get back So I want to like enter into like what it was the garden You He’s entering into it. Was he afraid of death? Did he fear death? Things to talk about on the other side of the break. We’ll be right back.

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Welcome back to the Catholic Man Show.

Hope this holy week provides you many graces upon you and your family. We’re talking about the agony in the garden, talking about You know, the beginning, basically, of, of the passion, of Jesus entering into his passion. It starts with the Passover, obviously, we just talked about on the other side of the 

David Niles: break.

A redemptive Lent to you. A redemptive Lent. That’s what I used to say. Nice. Just thinking about it. A redemptive Lent. 

Adam Minihan: A redemptive Lent for you. Nice. So, before the break, we were talking about how the Passover 

David Niles: That went exactly as I said 

Adam Minihan: it would. [00:26:00] Which, I don’t think anybody thought, oh no, there’s no way he’s gonna do it that way.

Yeah. So we, we were talking about like either the Passover started, it was actually, you know, the small tea tradition that it was in Mark’s parents’ house. Yeah. One of the writers of the gospels and so he, he, he enters into, he has the Passover and he enters into the Garden of Gethsemane.

Mm-Hmm. and the, the amount of olives. Right. And say, so a lot of this is, I’m actually pulling from St. Thomas Aquinas and his, all of his wisdom, he, he. One of the things he did was he has the Katena Katena Aria. Is that how you pronounce it? Yeah. And basically what it is is commentary on the Gospels and all he does is he pulls from the Church Fathers and the early, early Church Saints.

It’s like on the commentaries on, on the Gospels. 

David Niles: The Katena Aria. If you have only, like, a few books to have, okay, obviously the, the, the Bible, okay, and then the Catena Aurea [00:27:00] is this, it’s a gem that, like, no, people don’t ever talk about, but like you said, it’s compiled by St. Thomas. What he thought, these are the most important things that the church fathers have said, so 

Adam Minihan: it’s, or, or, early church 

David Niles: saints, or yeah, or other, yeah, exactly, but, oh, it’s mostly, like, heavily church fathers.

Right. He put it together from these things that they said. So it’s not his commentary. It’s not even his commentary. He, but he did compile it. He did curate, you know, and decide. And it’s beautiful. It’s, it’s beautiful. Incredible. Yeah. And so, like, this is, you know, like, the Summa is great. The Gospels are better.

You know, okay? And so, like, this is the best, well, there’s a lot of great commentaries on Gospels out there that, you know, might be actually more helpful today because, like, we lose a lot about the culture. But anyway, the Catena Aurea, I think everyone should 

Adam Minihan: have it. Yeah, and so it’s really great. So, I’m pulling a lot, [00:28:00] like, I studied it a lot this week trying to understand, going into, you the agony in the garden and what the early church father said, what the saints said, and pulling it to try to maybe dispel some of the things you would think are the case about the agony in the garden, and maybe like, oh, I didn’t really take that angle from it, right?

Because we’ve talked about this on the show before, but you know, there’s four ways to read the Bible, right? We had a conversation with Deacon Harrison Garlick on this, right? The literal, the allegorical, the moral, and the anagogical, right? And so like, there’s The more that you can read into scripture, and the more you can pull out, and the more you can pull from other sources, right, the more 

David Niles: it becomes alive.

Right. Yeah, so there’s always four answers to what does this passage mean. Yes. 

Adam Minihan: So anyway, so Jesus enters into the garden and Saint Bede says that he talks about how this place is somewhere he could easily be found. Right, because he’s been there many times. In fact, it’s quoted in the Gospels [00:29:00] that he goes there many times to actually teach.

David Niles: Right, yeah, it was sort of a rendezvous spot 

Adam Minihan: for him. Right, so, remember, Jesus knows that he’s entering into the passion. He knows that Judas is already left. He knows that Judas is going to be coming back and turning him in. Huh. And so he’s not going to a place that’s difficult for him to find, like, to, to kind of hide.

Right. He’s going to a place that, like, People have seen him there a lot. Mm hmm. Thousands of people have seen him there teaching, preaching. There’s nothing more conspicuous. Right. Right. Yeah. But St. Christendom says that, that it was his practice to pray apart from, from everybody else, right? From his apostles, from even his closest people.


David Niles: Right. Yeah, I mean, and this time, of course, he did take Peter, James, and John. 

Adam Minihan: And then, but then further, went even further. But then, yeah, but 

David Niles: then he, yeah, you’re right, he even Apart from that, there’s a lot of moments in the gospel where he goes by himself to 

Adam Minihan: pray. And St. Chrysostom says that this is teaching us to study And in [00:30:00] quiet in retirement of our prayers, right?

So even and think Damascene, he talks about this as well, is like the importance of when you are stressed, when there is a lot of anxiety, the importance of removing yourself from, from everybody else and, and offering that up to 

David Niles: our Lord. I think this is also just a One of those things about the great, the mystery of the hypostatic union, the fact that Christ is fully man, fully divine, right?

He’s not a human person, he’s a divine person, but he was fully, he took on a human nature, and he was fully human. And so that’s why he is the, Exemplary example, right? He’s the example of examples for us as men, because there is a temptation to be like, well sure, Christ did this, but I don’t walk on water, you know, so therefore I’m not, like, what, I’m not gonna pay attention to what he does.

That’s the wrong attitude because he even goes apart to pray, and so that, I think that tells us something about, our own nature. My own experience teaches [00:31:00] me that if I’m with other people while I’m praying, depending on who those people are, and their ability to be quiet, okay? And actually, like, essentially what it is, is How good are you at making it so I forget you’re here?

Right, you know like because if we’re praying it’s not about you, right? So like really having that quiet prayer Even jesus needed it. That’s the thing. He’s god and even he needed it and 

Adam Minihan: And especially in in times where you know, we see this throughout the gospels where he knew he was going to be preaching to a lot of people or he knew he was going to enter into a lot of people trial and tribulation, like about to, you know, through Lent, going into the desert, you know.

Obviously, at this point as well, going into the Agony in the Garden, so he, he makes sure to set an example for us. That in time, like, there are gonna be times in which we’re gonna have high stress. We’re gonna have high anxiety. Yeah. We’re not gonna know what to do. But the thing to do, because this is why this is a beautiful part [00:32:00] about the Hypostatic Union, right, about the word made flesh, is that he is the manifestation of man, of what the, the excellence of man is, and so like, he is what we should 

David Niles: be.

Christ reveals man to himself and makes his supreme calling clear. 

Adam Minihan: Right. And so anyway, so he gives us this example. To For us to use, right? Yeah. So one of the things I actually thought that was very interesting as well that Thomas, right, includes in this commentary is, is from a Benedictine month, monk of the 9th century.

I think, I looked it up, and I think this is how you pronounce it, is remi Remigius, I think is how you actually say it. I thought it was going to be rim something, but it’s like It’s not 

David Niles: re it’s not remigius? No. 

Adam Minihan: Remigius. Yeah, I think that’s I mean that’s how I 

David Niles: Who knows. Anyway. You know what, we could say how we could we could say A lot of 

Adam Minihan: most of his Nobody knows.

My understanding is most of his writings did not make it, like, so we don’t have it. Other than what Thomas has kept. Now, I could be wrong there, but that’s just, [00:33:00] that’s just what I think. Okay. Some of the, some of the work that I, but he says, he’s talking about this. So he says, he had accepted that his disciples faith and his, their devout devoutedness of their will, but he foresaw that they would be troubled and scattered abroad, right?

So he knew like, you know, the shepherd would be, would hit and his flock would scatter. Like Christ says. Right. And therefore bade them to sit still in their places. in the agony of the garden. For to sit belongs to one at ease, but they would be grievously troubled that they should have denied him. And so he was talking, he’s talking about like, hey, because this is what Jesus does, right?

In the agony, he brings the three, the Peter, James, and John, and says, Sit here and pray while I go over here and pray. And he goes, basically, a stone throw away is what the gospel says. Yeah. And prostrates himself, throws his face down on the ground to pray. But he tells them to sit still and pray. Which I thought was so benedictine, right?

Because one of their charisms is [00:34:00] stability. Stability, yeah. But, how true is it that the man who is at ease, the man who is at peace, is pretty still? They’re not moving around. Sure. Yeah, totally. So I just thought that was kind of a beautiful, the Lord knew that they were about to be scattered, that their faith was about to be shaken, and so what did he do?

He gave them this last minute lesson to sit still and pray, 

David Niles: right here. Yeah, you know, he’s, like, and what he’s saying here, he’s very much aware of their shortcomings Just, whether physically or whatever, I mean, think about this. At this point, these, these disciples, the exception of Judas, they’re passionately in love with, with Christ.

You can see it in Peter, like, saying, no, if you die, I’m dying with you. Right. Like, like, no way, like, I’m ready, I am ready to die. And with, you can just feel the fervor in, in that, [00:35:00] in, in his, in him, when he says that. And so, right after that. They’re going across to pray, and Jesus is sweating bullets. Like, if he has ever looked bad, this is the moment he, he has, I don’t know what he looked like after he came back from fasting for 40 days.

I imagine he looked like, he had to look rough. Yeah, maybe a little rough. Okay, but in this moment, he’s sweating blood. Okay, hold on. Let’s not get to that point yet. But I just want to, my point is, they even, they couldn’t even stay awake, even seeing his distress, knowing what was about to happen, because it wasn’t, okay, like, Christ has been telling them for a long time now, over and over and over and over again, I’m going to Jerusalem to die, okay?

These three were on They were there at the transfiguration. Okay? And they know very specifically why they’re here. So that Christ is gonna die. And [00:36:00] now here he is in like his worst moment, and they can’t even stay awake. Okay? What’s 

Adam Minihan: very interesting is that’s the literal read of it. Some of the church fathers have a really beautiful more moral 

David Niles: reading of this.

Yeah. Well, I only bring that up to talk about what you said here is about he was very, he was very aware of their shortcomings. He knew their devotedness, but their inability to, yeah, to deal with everything. Right. So he, he gets it. 

Adam Minihan: Yeah. So we’re going to talk about Jesus starting to pray and if Jesus feared his death on the other side of the break.

David Niles: Welcome back to the Catholic Man Show, I’m David Niles. Here with Adam Minahan. Everyone else has abandoned us. I look to the left. There is no one. To the right. I am surrounded by foes. [00:37:00] My bones are racked. There was no one to ease my pain. No Juan Posada. No Jimbo Baggins. No Jimbo Baggins. I’m utterly, I am utterly crushed.

Adam Minihan: So we’re talking about the agony of the garden. We’re talking about Jesus. Was that pretty good? That, that 

David Niles: was pretty good. Thank you. Yeah, that was pretty good, because we’re here all by yourself. Yeah, that’s what I’m trying to say is it’s just us. Nobody else is here. . That’s my lint, the linin version of me saying nobody else is here.

Adam Minihan: So we’re talking about Jesus in the agony of the garden. So Saint surreal, he talked about how, you know, again, Jesus, the, the important part of Jesus. Removing himself, even from his three closest friends, Peter, James, and John, from a cast, a stone’s cast away, which is in Luke’s gospel. It’s funny because the other gospels don’t actually mention how far away.


David Niles: is this like 

Adam Minihan: a sand wedge? I would imagine more of a lob wedge. Yeah, like 

David Niles: maybe a 56 degree or like Yeah, something 

Adam Minihan: like that, [00:38:00] roughly. 58. Yeah, in the 

David Niles: rough. Yeah, okay, out of the rough. Yeah, gotcha. That makes more sense to me. Yeah, I don’t throw a lot of stones. Okay, 

Adam Minihan: right so again, so they’re really wanted to talk about and like Make sure people understood like the importance of Jesus going alone to pray like that It’s important for all of us right to 

David Niles: do this I feel like we say this a lot on our podcast, but your prayer life is like the most essential thing about your life Yeah, you’re really that relationship you have with God numero uno numero.

Okay, so it’s you should really do a good try try hard So, 

Adam Minihan: before the break you’re talking about or we said like did Jesus fear his death 

David Niles: I’m gonna say this is cheating, but I think it’s yes. And no, I think it’s both Okay. I think on a human level, it’s only natural for you to be, to fear death. Mm hmm.

Death is an abomination. Mm hmm. It’s a result of sin. Mm hmm. That is why Jesus had [00:39:00] to bear it. Mm hmm, right? But also I think on a divine level, the answer is no. I know it’s just in the movie, The Passion of the Christ, and which is not, I get, this is not biblical. You know, that scene where he’s being handed the cross and he embraces it.

Mm hmm. I just think, I really love that scene of Christ embracing his cross, loving it, you know. Mm hmm. Because he loves us, you know. Yeah. So I think it’s, I think it’s both. Yes, he feared death and, and And no, he didn’t fear death. Yeah. 

Adam Minihan: So the body naturally has a inclination to not have the body soul removed from one another.

Right. And so there’s an anxiety that happens there, but I think that you can train, I mean, obviously you can train your body to train, train yourself to not be worried about that. Right. And we see this in with martyrs, right. For greater love. Yeah. 

David Niles: And we should all be trying to do that. Yes. 

Adam Minihan: And so most of like, [00:40:00] interestingly, most of the, the, the saints, Talk about it.

They like it’s a false pretense to think that Jesus feared his death. Really? Yeah So let me let me say so St. John Chrysostom who was Early church like the very early church St. John Chrysostom, right? So he says he’s talking about people who thought that he was refusing his passion and like like not wanting to die Or having fear of death.

He says Nor says he this as refusing his passion for he who rebuked a disciple who wished to prevent his passion so as even after many condemnations to call him Satan, how should he be unwilling to be crucified? So remember, he just told Peter, get away from me Satan. Yeah. Because Peter was basically telling him like, Lord, don’t do anything wrong.

Don’t go be crucified. Don’t do this. Right. And he says, get away from me, Satan. 

David Niles: Yeah, that line that he says, he says, get thee behind me, Satan, is a really beautiful [00:41:00] line. You know, it’s just one of the things that we miss in English that in Hebrew is very present. When a disciple, when a, like a master like Jesus or a rabbi was going, like, when he would accept a disciple, he would tell them, get thee behind me.

Basically saying, follow me. Follow my ways, follow, like, come and learn from me. So when he says, get thee behind me, he’s re, he’s reminding Peter, follow me. He’s, it’s a, it’s one, it’s not only a rebuke, it is a rebuke, but it’s also simultaneously an encouragement to say, remember Peter, remember why, remember why we’re here.

Remember what your life is about. It’s about following me, what I do, you will also do, which is also a foreshadowing of Peter’s own death. Yeah. Yeah, upside down. It’s a, it’s a really, that particular line is a, is beautiful when you, once again, if you don’t study the scriptures from people who know these things, cause I [00:42:00] don’t know Hebrew, like I only know that particular thing cause, talk to somebody then like, man, that kind of thing really unlocks a lot of, a lot of 

Adam Minihan: beauty.

Absolutely. Yeah, and so just to make sure that you you don’t think that we’re just pulling one quote, right? So let me let’s go to a doctor of the church st Hillary one that we don’t really talk about very much. We you and I we have a book. We just bought you and I both just bought a book of st Hillary’s writings and I really want to dive into it to talk more about Him as a doctor of the church and just bring some of his writings.

I don’t 

David Niles: know I think there’s probably a it might even be the majority of Catholics think st. Hillary is a girl 

Adam Minihan: But he was known as the hammer a hammer of ariens, 

David Niles: which is too bad right because his name is Hillary Yeah 

Adam Minihan: to us today in Latin his name really means like happiness or cheerfulness. So anyway, that’s cool.

Here’s what he talks about Regarding people who think about the fear of the passion and death of our Lord He says I asked those who think this You Whether it stands with reason that he should [00:43:00] have feared to die or banished from the Apostles all fear of death or extorted them to the glory of martyrdom and If his passion was to do him honor, how could he fear of his passion make him sorrowful?

How could the fear of his passion make him 

David Niles: sorrowful? Yeah, I don’t know and I guess it depends on what what we mean by fear. When I was thinking fear I was like

Maybe fear is not the thing I was thinking of exactly. I was really thinking more of like, a desire for it not to happen. Which really isn’t fear. That’s not the same thing as, as fear. So maybe I should, it’s okay, I’ll let it go. It doesn’t matter. 

Adam Minihan: It’s fair, yeah. So he brought, like we said he brought, he had forwarded them bringing Peter, James, and John with him, right?

And he began to be in sorrowful, [00:44:00] therefore he was, Not sorrowful till he, he, he, because he took them, but he, he was all fear, I’m sorry, but all his fear began after he had taken them with him so that his, his agony was not for himself, but for those he had taken with him. So again, this, this reference is, is really right before then we hear in the gospel that The shepherd will be struck and the sheep will scattered.

Will be 

David Niles: scattered. Which, yeah, he said so that the pro the, the prophecy may be fulfilled. Right, right. 

Adam Minihan: Yeah. And so like he’s, or something, he’s, so his sorrow is for tho for the sheep without a shepherd. Mm-Hmm. for his, for, for his 

David Niles: cre. Which is something he has said previously in the gospels already.

Yeah. About when he sees, I, I think it’s after the, like at the, right before the feeding of, it’s either the 3000 or the 5,000, I don’t remember. But he was, he saw them and was sorrow, he was sorrowful because they were like a she, a she, they were like sheep [00:45:00] without a shepherd. Right. And so he feeds them all.

Adam Minihan: St. John Damascus says, Excuse me. It did say that he had a natural fear and sorrow for death, but for there is a natural fear with, for the, the soul shrinks from the separation from the body, right? Which is what we just talked about. Yeah. Yeah. But, but, but by reason of that close sympathy implanted from the first of, by the maker of all things.

So it’s, so he’s talking about, again, we have the creator of all things. Mm hmm. Word made flesh. Now struggling. The Logos. The Logos, 

David Niles: right. The word that was spoken that brought forth existence. 

Adam Minihan: Yeah, and here’s, here’s something, like, so 

David Niles: it says Thank you, I just want to say thank you to John, St. John Damascus for, like, really, like, backing me up.

He’s, I feel like what he said was backing me up there. Here, here’s something about 

Adam Minihan: human nature that I think is really funny that he, that St. John, Says here, wherefore the passions of our, of our nature were in [00:46:00] Christ both in, in nature and beyond nature, right? Natural and supernatural. Yeah. By nature because he, he left his flesh to suffer the things incidental to it, beyond nature or supernaturally, because these natural emotions did not precede him, and his will, 

David Niles: right?

They didn’t come before his will. They didn’t, yeah, interfere with his will. Interfere with 

Adam Minihan: his will. Because, for in Christ, nothing befell of compulsion. Christ was not a compulsive person. Right. But it was all voluntary. With his will, he hungered. With his will, he feared or was sorrowful. That’s the 

David Niles: thing about Christ, is that when you actually think about, oh, his voluntariness versus his compulsion, in the end, they become the same.

He wills it so much, what the father wills. He’s volunteering, like in Latin, the word volo means, I will. Something we say at our house a lot, like, Volo! I [00:47:00] will! It’s just fun. Fun, fun, homeschool culture right there. Really making a, 

Adam Minihan: a good mark for a homeschool. 

David Niles: Homeschool! Yeah, like, anyway his voluntariness was so it was so perfect.

That, like, to distinguish it between compulsion is difficult to do, okay? Like, he does what the father wills. Mm hmm. And it almost seems compulsory, but only because it’s so voluntary. 

Adam Minihan: Yeah, St. Jerome. Master, you know of, you know, the Bible, in the biblical commentary, he talks about that his soul, his sorrowfulness was not because of death, but unto death, which is what we read, right, in the Gospels.

It wasn’t because of death, but unto death, until he had set the apostles free by his passion. So, it was not that his soul was sorrowful of death, but unto death. Yeah. Which I think is very important. 

David Niles: [00:48:00] That is 

Adam Minihan: a good distinction. Yeah. So we’re out of time on Catholic Radio, I believe. Do we have one more or is this it?

Okay go check us out on the podcast and we’re going to continue talking about what does it mean when the apostles fell asleep and what did the church fathers think about that? We’re on the Lord’s team. The winning side. So St. Jerome talks about, you know, so Jesus goes and prays. I do 

David Niles: like, of course I’ve always read this, my soul is sorrowful unto death.

Yeah. You know, and I really, really like the Dewey Rames style of things. This is kind of like, it’s got the word unto. I know this isn’t from the Dewey Rames, but still it says that. That does get a little bit confusing sometimes, because to me when I see that. I just, I can’t make that distinction. It’s not as clear to me because of the language, even though it sounds cooler.

It’s not sorrowful to death, but unto death, which is a big distinction, which when you pointed out, I can appreciate the distinction, but it’s not something that jumps out at me. When [00:49:00] I read it. 

Adam Minihan: So Jesus goes again, we’re at the agony, we’re at, we’re at the garden. He goes, he brings Peter games and John, he tells him to sit down and pray.

He goes and prorates himself. He comes back and they’re they’re asleep, right? Yeah. 

David Niles: Three times. Th Yeah. Three 

Adam Minihan: times. But St. Saint Jerome talks about this. He says, did they sleep? He says he would have have them forego not bodily rest, for which is a critical time here, because remember, there’s no room for this.

There’s no time for this. They know that he’s about to enter into his passion. Yeah. Yeah. Right? So there’s no, but it’s a, it’s a sleep of unbelief. So, so a lot of the, the, the saints talk about this in origin as well. Talks about this, that it’s not necessarily them falling asleep from a physical standpoint.

But it’s a, remember the Holy, the Holy Spirit has not 

David Niles: been It could have been, I think it probably was that too. Again, there’s 

Adam Minihan: a literal, but we’re talking a little bit more, you know, further on. 

David Niles: But I don’t, but it’s not that they didn’t physically fall asleep, but [00:50:00] that’s not the most important thing.

element here that at least Origen is, is speaking about right 

Adam Minihan: now. Yeah, so he, but they talk about, like, remember that the Holy Spirit’s not descended upon them yet, right? You know, so they’ve not had their, their supernatural virtues have not been strengthened. They’re not, they’re not, like, fully awake yet.

Right, and so this is the sleep of unbelief, and this is the problem, this is what some of the, the saints talk about, like, this is the reason why Peter actually denies our, three times, and this is why the apostles scatter, and they get, you know, Frightened is because like they actually have not had the Holy Spirit descend upon them and strengthen their faith huh, which I thought was was very interesting.

But when when he comes back and he sees them asleep Guardini, Romero Guardini talks about this in the Lord. Have you ever read that book before? It’s big. It’s beautiful I’ve not read all of it, but I’ve read parts of it. He talks about this there. He says this is truth Realized in charity and not truth like [00:51:00] capital T truth.

Like this is yeah him Yeah, realized in charity all of his loved ones all of his closest friends. Mm hmm have departed from like I’ve fallen 

David Niles: asleep Mm hmm. Yeah, and once again, that’s I think you know each one of these Stations of the cross, you know these the agony in the garden. This is certainly part of it You know, and I think that the Apostles are The example for us all, right?

That he is suffering. What is his suffering here? It’s rejection. And even those closest to him, his best friends, even they have fallen as like, even they haven’t stayed, stayed with him, so to speak, right? Yeah, you know, and so like, That’s us with him, you know, [00:52:00] we’re all we’re all on this journey with him Yeah, right that we’re his companions through life and every single one of us have done that right?

And I think that’s part of the big I just really love Peter Especially the gospel of Mark. I mean if I had to pick favorites the gospel mark is my least favorite just because it’s, it’s kind of blunt, short, get to the, you know, it’s just like, just goes boom, boom, boom, boom, like one thing to the next and it’s kind of like, whoa.

Right. That was all fast. But what I really like about it is that, most likely written by Peter, or heavily influenced by Peter, and you get to see a lot of Peter’s, so that’s like his shortcomings are always very present. Yeah. Right? That he wanted to make sure, because you know, by the time he’s writing it, he’s a much different man.

And he’s. He’s putting all of his problems out there for everyone to see, and I just really appreciate Peter because he’s [00:53:00] just like this passionate guy. He’s somebody that the, the, like the personality of Peter is a lot more on the surface. You know, you can really get to know him more than the other gospels.

St. John is also one of the guys you can kind of get to know pretty well. But Peter, he’s just this, like, you just, you know him, right? And you know, people like him. And it’s like And you see 

Adam Minihan: yourself in him 

David Niles: a lot? Yes, he’s very blue collar just like, passionate, like, yes. He’s like, a guy who’s gonna do the 

Adam Minihan: work.

The spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak a lot of the time. 

David Niles: Right. He’s like, oh, all we have to do is work hard? Okay. Yeah, we can work hard. Sure. You know, like that kind of guy. Right. You know, like you see here at the end, it’s like, oh no, I’m gonna die. Totally, you’re dying. I’m totally dying. And then, You know, like, he’s so relatable, because, like, an hour later.

Right. Or close to it. I don’t know how long it is, but not that long, 

Adam Minihan: you know. So Jesus sees them asleep. He goes back. So he wakes them up. He goes back and prays again, [00:54:00] right? And this is when Jesus says, you know, tells the Father, Thy will be done. Right? And St. Leo the Great has this beautiful saying, and this is very, like, I hope this rings.

I hope this hits with other guys, because it hit with me. hard with me. He says, in reference to Thy Will Be Done, he says, Let all the sons of the church then utter this prayer, that when the pressure of some mighty temptation lies upon us, they may embrace endurance of the suffering, disregarding its terrors.

David Niles: Totally, man. I I have to do this. Sometimes. Sometimes in my prayer, I will be confronted with a fear that is unrational. For instance, yeah, I mean you know, like, for instance, sometimes this happened to me not too long ago. I’m just praying and, you know, telling the Lord, you know, whatever you want for my life, I do too.

Sign me up. I’m here. [00:55:00] Like, is there a permission slip? I’m signing it. Whatever it is. And then the thought occurs, which I know is a temptation. What if he asked you to sell your house, sell everything you own, give it to the poor, and like, live in a shack with all your, you know, like, it’s just, like, basically everything that you really love about you, you know, all these things you, you love about your life.

Right. What if that’s what he wanted? Would you still do it? Are you still, are you still like, Mr. Sign me up, Mr. Permission slip guy? Is he still that same guy? You know, and I have to, obviously it’s like, I’m afraid of that. Right. I don’t want to do that. Right. And so there are just moments like that in life where I have to say and remind myself and it’s an, an actually an intellectual exercise amidst your prayer or whatever, where you say, okay, I know that God is good and I know that the things that he wants for my life, whatever they are, [00:56:00] they will be the best things.

Yeah. And so, yes. Even if that’s what it is. Now, if that’s what it is, Lord, you’re gonna have to, like, you’re gonna have to make it abundant, like, I’m not just gonna, like, run out and do that tomorrow, but you know what I mean? It’s 

Adam Minihan: really cool because St. Jerome actually talks about this very thing, this very thought.

In reference of Peter, so this is, like, bridges really well together, so he talks about this. He says, The more confident we are of our zeal, Which is something that, that Peter definitely had. It was something that you definitely talked about. Mr. Sign me up, Mr., you know, like, I’m all in guy. Yeah, exactly. The more mistrust we should be of our frailty of flesh.

David Niles: So we should just trust in ourselves less. Exactly. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Yeah. At first I was reading that backwards like, mistrust your frailty, which is sort of like a double negative, but that’s not what it means. Yeah. 

Adam Minihan: Yeah. So then we see Jesus like, he’s comforted by an angel. Yeah. An angel comes and comforts him, right?

Yeah, that’s a Which 

David Niles: is like, a bizarre It’s a [00:57:00] mystery to me. What does it mean to minister to God? I don’t 

Adam Minihan: Okay, so why don’t you read what Saint Bede says? You can read 

David Niles: right there. Read that to him. Saint Bede Says in another place we read that angels came and ministered unto him. Unto him. Right, like 

Adam Minihan: There’s there were times like even in the desert.

There were several times. Yeah. Yeah, like Angels came to Jesus. 

David Niles: I’m just gonna start using the word unto instead of to. Yeah In testimony, then, of each nature, angels are said both to have ministered to him and confronted him. Comforted. Thank you. Big difference. Yes. So they were, they both ministered and comforted him.

They didn’t confront him. I was like, alright, let’s see where this is going. Bede! This is getting interesting! So they comforted him. For the creator needed not the protection of his creatures, but being made man, as for our sake, he is [00:58:00] sad. The end. So for our sakes, he is comforted. Yeah, so 

Adam Minihan: it’s basically saying like, this is just, again, another example for us.

David Niles: Interesting. That is interesting. Because I have, I have, like, always wondered, like, 

Adam Minihan: what does that mean? It’s the same thing, like, I think, like, to me You’re ministering to him? It’s, to me, it’s the same, like, relationship as, like, him being baptized. Yeah, 

David Niles: I mean obviously that wasn’t like a sacrament, but you know like what it’s it was like this outward expression at the time of like Hey, I’m gonna live a better life right or something right?

Yeah, it’s like oh really Jesus You’re gonna you’re just gonna turn it around live a better life now, right? But I’ve always kind of assumed when angels came and ministered to him. It was Semantics, you know, like what does that mean sort of like in the Old Testament when you read people saying let us bless the Lord Oh, really?

You’re gonna yeah, let’s just bless that. Let’s I feel like we can bless him Let’s bless the Lord [00:59:00] because he needs our he needs our 

Adam Minihan: blood. Yeah, that’s a different 

David Niles: difference. It’s that’s a semantic thing They don’t mean that we’re going to bless the Lord. They mean like we’re gonna praise the Lord, right?

So I kind of a thought Angels ministering to Jesus. I don’t know what that means. But I’m sure it’s, so this makes a lot of sense. I’m glad to, I’m glad to see this 

Adam Minihan: today. So then he starts sweating blood. Which is crazy, right? Which we find out from scientifically, like that actually does happen. Yeah, 

David Niles: it totally can happen.

Now, in every other case, you die. I don’t know if that’s true or not. Yeah, so when you sweat blood, you’re not gonna live. You have reached a level of trauma for Where you, like your body is shutting down. Okay. So like the systems of your body are no longer functioning. That’s why blood is oozing out of your 

Adam Minihan: pores.

Yeah. Now there’s there’s two schools of thought on this, right. That. The writing is, is talking about that his sweat was so profuse and so thick and, and heavy that it [01:00:00] looked like blood, that it was not, was not truly blood. Like this is actually, some of the actual early church fathers talk about this, from that aspect.

I don’t buy that. That’s fine. St. Augustine talks about it, and he says our Lord praying with bloody sweat represents the martyr, martyrdoms which flow from his whole body, Which is the church. Mm hmm. So it was like a prefigurement of showing like, listen, the blood of, of the body of the church grows necessarily through the blood 

David Niles: of Christ.

Sure, totally. And of course, there’s all kinds of symbolism here. But I also think that the church fathers who might say, oh that, you know, it was more of just heavy sweat. It wasn’t actually blood. That’s probably because the science of the time didn’t know that this was actually, like, a thing that can happen.

That could be. You know, and so there’s, I think you gotta, that has to be a part of that discussion. But it is actually something that can happen. What I see [01:01:00] in Christ is that At the agony of the garden, the scourging at the pillar, the crowning with thorns, at each one of these stations Is a death. It’s, it’s a suffering in, at every moment That for you and I would have amounted to death.

So it was like Christ dying at every stage It was a constant death that he was living in his passion. Yeah, so it was death at every moment Okay, so because if you and I sweat blood we will die if we had been flogged the way he was flogged, we were, nobody’s, you’re not gonna, you’re not gonna get off the, the pillar, or whatever you were tied to.

And even the mystics have revealed, like, that, has been revealed to the mystics anyway, that at the crowning of thorns, that some of those, the needles actually pierced his skull and entered his brain, okay? So, once again, you’d be dead. 

Adam Minihan: Or at least not functioning well. Right, 

David Niles: or you were gonna die.

You’re not gonna, you’re not gonna carry a cross after that, right? And so, [01:02:00] at each one of those things, it was enough to kill 

Adam Minihan: you. Absolutely, yeah. So, so again, so Jesus comes back again, Right? This is the second time he goes out and prays. He comes back again, and the, and the apostles are again, asleep.

Yeah. And so, why don’t you read what Origen says about this? This is the specific time of the second time that, that, that, that he comes back and they fall asleep. Here’s what 

David Niles: Origen says. He says, and I suppose, that the eyes of their body were not so much affected as the eyes of their mind, because the Spirit was not yet given them.

Wherefore, He does not rebuke them, but goes again and prays, teaching us that we should not faint. We should not fate. Is that right? We should not fate? F A I T? Faint, yeah. We should not faint, but should persevere in prayer until we obtain what we have begun to ask. 

Adam Minihan: So, so, again, you have to go back again, right?

So Jesus goes back three times, to pray. And this is not like, [01:03:00] this is very intentional. There’s actually something very, under, like there’s a lesson here, right? Shockingly, right? There’s a reason why he goes back. There’s a lesson in what Christ does. Right, yeah. Yeah, so he goes back three times and St.

Augustine picks up on this. He says that our Lord prays three times because of his three fold temptation and his passion. There’s three, like, they had three full, there’s temptations in his passion. The first one was the temptation of curiosity opposed to the death of fear, right? Because we were just talking about this.

The fear of death. The fear of death, right? That the body and the soul, the soul gets weary when the body and soul 

David Niles: have Yeah, death is abhorrent. Right. And get weary, like That the soul and body would be separated, right? It was never part of the plan. 

Adam Minihan: And there’s a We’re not made that way. And the temptation of curiosity there, right?

And even in a negative sense. Right, 

David Niles: a depraved 

Adam Minihan: curiosity. Right. Yeah and then he says the desire to of honor or applause as opposed to the dread of this disgrace and insult, right? So like there’s a desire to be honored [01:04:00] and obviously he’s the king of all kings. He’s the king of glory. Right. Yet he’s, his creatures are putting him to death.

Mm hmm. So there’s a temptation there, obviously. Super messed up. Right. And then the desire for pleasure as opposed to the fear of pain. Yeah. So there’s three times in which he goes back and prays and St. Augustine picks up on this and says like he’s actually, Reinforcing, I guess, for these three things.

David Niles: Interesting. I’m so glad people like him are St. 

Adam Minihan: Hilary has it. Why don’t you read the next one? What St. Hilary talks about, because he talks about the three as well. 

David Niles: Giving me the long ones here? Alright, St. Hilary. And whereas, when he returned and found them sleeping, he rebukes them the first time. The second time says nothing.

The third time bids them take their rest. The interpretation of this is that at the first That at the first, after his resurrection, when he finds them dispersed, distrustful, and [01:05:00] timorous, he rebukes them. The second time, when their eyes were heavy to look upon the liberty of the gospel, he visited, he visited them, sending them the spirit, the paraclete, for held back by attachment to the law, they slumbered in respect of faith.

But the third time, when he shall come in his glory, he shall restore them to quietness and confidence. Isn’t that beautiful? Yeah. 

Adam Minihan: Like, the three times. So, again, we see the Lord coming back and He rebukes him and says, Hey, stay awake. Huh. Can you not stay awake with me for one hour? Yeah. Which haunts me all the time.

In adoration. In adoration. When you’re there for an hour. Right. It haunts me all the time. And the second time, He sees him, again, back asleep, doesn’t say anything. He goes back and prays again. And the third time, He says take rest. The hour has 

David Niles: come. Mm hmm. I think He says, like, are you still taking your rest?

It is enough. Yeah. He says something like that. The hour has 

Adam Minihan: come. Yeah. And I think that’s [01:06:00] so beautiful, like, that brings to light, actually, like, what is actually happening in the agony of the garden. Mm hmm. In relationship to Peter, James, and John. 

David Niles: Yeah, I like how he tied that into after the resurrection, you know, how, because that’s, you know, after the resurrection, how we should be.

Before the resurrection is how we are, right? And so even afterwards, It’s a recognition that even as we should be there is still an element of journeying and growth Right that even if we’re not perfect yet, that doesn’t mean that we’re not on the right way 

Adam Minihan: The last thing I want to talk about at least that I have here on my notes is St.

Catherine of Siena who is just a boss She is just so epic if you actually read some of the things that she like happened in her life It was absolutely It’s just astonishing, like some of the things that the Lord gave her, the special graces that the Lord has, gave her. One of the [01:07:00] things, 

David Niles: like, kind of all the St.

Catharines are pretty great. 

Adam Minihan: Drexel? Macaulay? 

David Niles: I mean, they’re all like, if you’re a St. Catharine, like, you’re doing pretty good. Yeah, 

Adam Minihan: exactly. Yeah, so so apparently, the Lord gave St. Catharine the, like, the vision of what he experienced during the agony in the garden. Mm. Like, like showed her like this is this is what happened.

Yeah, which would be 

David Niles: Terrifying. Yeah, that’s it. That’s exactly what I was sitting here going like I don’t want that. Yeah 

Adam Minihan: Out of all the graces Lord out of all the great graces. Can I 

David Niles: pick something else? 

Adam Minihan: Oh, mr. Sign me up. Yeah. Yeah, 

David Niles: exactly Exactly, that’s what I That’s what I mean! 

Adam Minihan: So she, she recants it.

So she, she talks about this to, I, I, I believe is her spiritual director who is also a blessed. Probably cause of her. Yeah, most likely. But so he, and he’s [01:08:00] re he recounts this, right? So he’s, he’s telling, here’s what, here’s what she told me. He said, when he prayed at Gethsemane, let this cup pass for me.

Cause this is something that people talk about all the time, right? Oh, the Lord just didn’t want to actually do this. Yeah. Right, that he, he, he asked the Lord, he asked God the Father To not have to die. To not have to die. Yeah. Which is something that is very reasonable as a human being 

David Niles: to ask. If I were him.

Right. I would at least, like, give it 

Adam Minihan: a run. Yeah, and he said, but not my will. Right. But, but thy will. I’m just gonna 

David Niles: check. Right. Like, hey, I’m still on board, whatever you think. However, 

Adam Minihan: if it’s 

David Niles: like, Possible here? I don’t know. But this is, 

Adam Minihan: St. Catherine says, this is not what he asked. That’s not what he’s 

David Niles: saying.

Yeah. Okay. 

Adam Minihan: He says he was not asking for a reprieve from death, but rather that the agony of his incomplete mission might be removed soon by his final passion. So, but in [01:09:00] obedience he accepted whatever timing the father might choose, adding, but not what I will, but, but what you will. In St. Catherine’s view, Jesus pain stemmed not from a fear of death, but from the very opposite.

From his having something more to suffer. 

David Niles: So he was saying, like, please, let it be now. Right. That was not the Father’s will. Right. You know, it’s still very interesting because Again, this is This 

Adam Minihan: is, you don’t have to believe this at all, this is private revelation, and so this is something you’d be in complete great standing with the church and not believe this at all.


David Niles: Siena. But you have to say that. Yeah. Well. Yes. It is interesting, though, that, you know, because the hypostatic union is just one of those things that comes with a lot of mystery for us. That 

Adam Minihan: And I did my very best to negate material heresy in this episode. Yeah, yeah. [01:10:00] Because taking on this topic There’s opportunity.


David Niles: opportunity for material heresy. Oh gosh, there’s like some great opportunity. Yeah. Yeah, yeah. Not formal. We would never do, we’d never that. Look, but material heresy happens, okay? It just sometimes, sometimes it, you, you, you’re in the game long enough, it happens. It happens. Okay? Not, 

Adam Minihan: Not, not intentionally.

David Niles: mean, look at St. Patrick, okay? 

Adam Minihan: That’s 

David Niles: modalism, Patrick! Yeah, but just the idea of Of Christ, what he knew, okay, like, because sometimes it seems pretty clear he’s saying this, like, from the perspective of his human nature. Mm hmm. Because, and he’s, you know, it’s like, okay, he’s probably saying this for our benefit.

He’s saying this so we hear him say it. Because, to me, it’s like, well, don’t you know the Father’s will? 

Adam Minihan: Hey, also, if he’s a, if Peter, James, and John keep falling asleep How do they know what he said? Yeah, how Yes! How do they know? That’s 

David Niles: [01:11:00] exactly right! Mary told them. I honestly, I mean, obviously Mary was part, was a huge part of the Gospels.

Oh, I think so. I mean, especially in Luke. I mean the whole like first couple chapters of Luke. 

Adam Minihan: Yeah. Yeah. I mean like it’s like How do you know this without Mary giving insight? 

David Niles: Yeah, because Joseph was dead before he began his public ministry, right? 

Adam Minihan: Also, Mary and John You know, Mary told 

David Niles: St. John. Oh yeah, like, so Mary’s, Mary’s input in the gospel is huge.

Right. So, like, maybe she was there, quietly in the background, like always, you know. It’s like, well, after you guys fell asleep, I thought I should really meditate on these things in my heart that my son, that my beautiful, perfect son was saying. My pierced heart. You’re right, exactly. And While it pained me greatly that you didn’t hear them yourself, I’m overjoyed to share them with you now.

Right? [01:12:00] Yes! 

Adam Minihan: So it’s like, well I’m so disappointed in you that you weren’t here to hear this yourself. I’m so ecstatic that I get to tell you about 

David Niles: it. Out of the immense love for you that I share because of my, because of my son. Because my son loves you and I share that love with him. Right. For you. I was so sad that you missed out on these beautiful words that my son said.

Praise the Lord that you’re able to receive them now from a vessel so unworthy as myself.

So like, she had to, like, I don’t know, I don’t know about this particular scene. Anyway, good question. If they’re asleep, how do they know? Maybe the angel who was ministering To 

Adam Minihan: Jesus. Or maybe he wasn’t, they weren’t actually physically asleep. Maybe. Like what the saints were 

David Niles: actually talking about. Maybe.


Adam Minihan: twist. Anyway, I thought this was very interesting because a lot of people, including myself, when you read the gospel and you read that our Lord [01:13:00] says, Let this cup pass from me, but not thy will, but your will be done. I instantly, like, I go, I gravitate towards, like, the Lord is asking, like, may he not be crucified.

Mm hmm. May he not die. 

David Niles: Yeah, I mean, it seems like that’s what he says, especially once you know about it. Like, if you’ve read about the fourth cup. Right, and he knows what’s going to happen. What the cup is, right, is that the fourth cup comes, is associated with the paschal sacrifice. Right, and so he knows.

Adam Minihan: The death of the lamb. Right, and he knows, I’m the lamb, I’m the feast of the lamb, right? Right. You know, like, and so, in my mind, that’s what always, I gravitated towards. Sure. 

David Niles: You know, and once again, I think that there’s a both and here. That on a human level, does he want to die? No, he doesn’t want to die.

Why? Because. That’s part, it is ingrained into our nature. Yes, so. Inescapable. However. That you don’t 

Adam Minihan: want to die. However, in martyrdom, you know, like, you actually do want to die. But 

David Niles: that is [01:14:00] why it’s so it’s heroic. Right. Okay, because those people still feel that they don’t want 

Adam Minihan: to die. But this is what happens, like, whenever your wife, you know, is over there and you know the dishes need to be done and you don’t want to get up and go do them.

I never want to do the dishes. But you, but you choose to get up and go do them anyway, right? You’re choosing a death of yourself to go do that. And so if you train yourself to do these things, When the big martyrdom comes again, this is why like it’s so interesting to me that as we’re going through excess 90 and we’re doing the you know, cold showers and people act like I can’t I just can’t do the cold showers And then but the same guys we’ll sit there and say like, oh yeah, if I would die for my faith, and it’s like, hold on, time out.

You, you’re not willing to take a cold shower for 45 seconds? Yeah. But you’re willing to, to die for your 

David Niles: faith? The other day my wife was brushing her teeth, I got in the [01:15:00] shower, and was out of the shower Before she finished? 

Adam Minihan: Before she was done brushing her teeth. Same here, same here, that happens to me a lot, yeah.

Dude, I’ve, I’ve gotten the science of cold showers down pretty well, yeah. I am in and out with under, like, I think, I don’t know. I’m not under 

David Niles: 30 seconds. I feel good about where I am in my cold shower routine. 

Adam Minihan: And that’s saying something because I have a lot more hair than you. Yeah. Which takes a lot more time to wash and get the 

David Niles: soap out.

I think you and I have slightly different approaches, that’s okay. But, the thing about the martyrs, you know, and Christ. To say, I think that if we’re going to totally discount, His desire not to die. I think that we risk, you know, you kind of end up in a place And I’m not saying that’s what these saints are doing Because these are just excerpts from their writings, right?

Adam Minihan: So you risk the human nature? 

David Niles: Yeah, you’re discounting the fact that he’s fully human, [01:16:00] okay? And that part of the being fully human In our nature, is that human beings were not made to die. Mm hmm. That we were made for life. But if you Death is a result of sin. Yeah, it’s a little Which is why we all hate it, right?

And so Christ is gonna share that hatred for death in his own person. Sure. So yes, part of it is, I do think he didn’t want to die because he’s human. Of course, he knew he came to die. He wanted, of course, you know, just like the martyrs who pursue a higher good, he, of course, Christ is doing this, knowing full well the glory and goodness of his mission.

Sure. And so, in that way, he desired it, but still simultaneously, because of his, his nature, didn’t want it, right? He, or, or had an aversion towards it. 

Adam Minihan: Yeah. Yeah. Yeah, some kind of like pushback, right? Yeah, there’s this, this natural like, Eugh, I don’t want 

David Niles: [01:17:00] that. Right. I mean, just like, I understand that the good of fasting, the good of fasting, okay, and I fast on a regular basis.

You should fast more. Well, maybe I should, but No, 

Adam Minihan: no, no. You should.

David Niles: I will. Or something. You know what? You should fast more. I, 

Adam Minihan: I, I’ve started doing that with friends. Like, when they talk about fasting, I was like, Hey, dude, you should fast more. In fact, I’ve been meaning to tell you. You should fast more. Yeah. And just see what happens. I, I did this with another buddy actually this 

David Niles: week.

Punched you right in the face. Yeah, we were like, 

Adam Minihan: we were just talking, and he was like, yeah, I was fasting, and I was like, hey. You should fast more. And he’s like, yeah, I should. And I was like, no, no, no. And I like, I mean, like a lot, like, I like, I like, I gave the, the whole dramatic set like pauses. Right.

It’s like, no, no, no.

You should fast 

David Niles: more. [01:18:00] Next time. You should be like, no, no, no. And then act like, you’re calculating, no, like look up to the sky or almost like someone’s telling you something. You say, 

Adam Minihan: no, no, no. And you go down and you, you make the sign of the cross. 

David Niles: No, no, no. Wait. Yeah. No. Yeah. More. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. A lot more.

That’s what I’m, I’m being told. More. 

Adam Minihan: More. Yeah. 

David Niles: It could work. Yeah. So I only recently found out that a human being actually 40, like, eat no food for 40 days. I didn’t know, and that 40 days is considered like the early range of death. So, like, that’s the, that’s like the lower limit of when you will start to die.

Is 40 days. Hmm. I always took Christ’s. I thought it was like 

Adam Minihan: seven or eight. 

David Niles: No, no, no, no, no. Without food. No, [01:19:00] no. Without, no. 

Adam Minihan: You can go without water. You can go a long time. But without 

David Niles: food. No, you can only go, you can only go like three days without water. 

Adam Minihan: Without water, right. Yeah, but without food. I thought it was like seven or eight days.


David Niles: can no. So, according to a homily, I heard, okay, so, that’s my source, my source is a homily from a deacon, okay, I think he’s a good, which does not rule out Pope Francis, no, cause he’s still a deacon, yeah no, but there was, it wasn’t Pope Francis, it was not Pope Francis but he was saying how, Cardinal Burke, the lower limit of death, just joking, is 40 days, and so.

If you just, and obviously it depends on who you are. If you’ve got a little bit if you’re carrying a little bit more, if you’re carrying a little bit more soft flesh around, yeah, you can, you can make it longer if, if you’re, if you’re a, like a, an athlete. If you, if you’re walking around at like 7 percent body fat.


Adam Minihan: prefects nature, the more nature that you have. 

David Niles: I’m not sure that’s what it means, but. [01:20:00] You know, so obviously there’s a, but that was 40 days. I, I thought it was always a you know. Metaphor. A metaphor, right. Or just for a long time. Cause you, you know, the, the word 40 in the Bible. But actually, after hearing his homily, it made me think that he probably actually did it for 40 days.

He probably ate nothing. Which would be crazy. What’s the longest you’ve ever gone without eating?


Adam Minihan: no food at all. Zero. I think just a hair over 24 hours. 

David Niles: So, in high school, did you have Coughlin in high school? Yeah. Did you have to do the fasting thing? Remember, he, he, part of his like, junior level class. was that you went 48 hours, a whole 48 hours without eating. So I had him, and I made it, I almost made it.

The thing was, we were, [01:21:00] we would stop eating at his class one day. And then, two days later, we would have, like, a feast in his class. My job was to pick up donuts on the way to school. Your will was so weak. And I could smell these donuts in the back. On the way to class, I had him, like, second, I had him, like, second period, right?

I was so close, and I, and before we got to, before we got to class, I was like, give me one of those donuts. I was so hungry. And 

Adam Minihan: I ate one. It’s interesting how, how your will, like, what your will 

David Niles: does. Oh, dude. Dude. Yeah, and but that’s I mean, that’s the longest I’ve ever gone. But 

Adam Minihan: I’ve gone, I’ve gone crazy amounts of times on very little food.

David Niles: Yeah, but a little bit of food actually goes a long way. So 

Adam Minihan: like in high school, I wrestled. Huh. And like I would try to cut weight. Yeah, I’d pull like So in high, you know, I’m not I’m not a thick guy. I’m pretty lean. And, and senior year of [01:22:00] high school. Would you wrestle at? Well, senior year of high school.

David Niles: You were, you were a lot bigger 

Adam Minihan: back then. Yeah. When I, when I walked into the wrestling room I was like 178 and I wrestled at 152. That’s a big, like that is, that’s for my senior year. And that’s, that’s a, that’s a lot of weight, you know, 30 pounds is a lot of weight. And so I would go, you know, multiple days.

David Niles: Just a little bit of food. Just 

Adam Minihan: like a hair, you know, just a 

David Niles: little bit of food. It goes, but it can go a long way. I mean. Yeah, but it’s just, it’s 

Adam Minihan: not fun. Yeah, it’s not easy. But, 

David Niles: Yeah. Anyway, I just thought that was interesting. That is interesting, yeah. Once again, Another example of Christ basically going to death.

Yeah. Embracing, like, that death is this companion of his. Yeah. That he’s walking around with. Yeah. And, and, 

Adam Minihan: I don’t want to Because this is his end. He knows what his, [01:23:00] like, 

David Niles: what he’s here for. Right. Well, he came to conquer that. Yeah. And we don’t have to get into this today, but Let’s get into it. No, I’m just kidding.

Of all of the Sorrowful Mysteries Yeah? The one that I think would be the hardest. Not that it’s the most painful, by any means. But I just think the hardest would be the carrying of the cross. From a physical aspect? No. Because the, all of the other ones, just from a natural level, are being done to him.

Okay, you’re, you’re tied to a post, and you’re being, you’re being lashed. Mm hmm. You’re being crucified. Not the agony of the garden. The Agony in the Garden is like, he’s not, like, okay, well, like, hey, he’s dealing with rejection. Yeah. It’s, it’s just happening to him, okay? He just loves, and you, and you, the reason 

Adam Minihan: is There’s a difference, there A difference in the Agony of the Garden, like, compared to, like, the Scourging of the Pillar, or things like that, because, like, he can leave in the Agony of the Garden.

Well, right, but 

David Niles: still Like, you’re tied to a pillar. He [01:24:00] can’t escape the rejection. The rejection is just a reality that he has no choice but to deal with, right? The thing that’s unique about the Carrying of the Cross Is that it was up to his human will to take one more step every single time. It was his, like, the only thing that made it happen was his decision to do it, right?

Whereas, like, when you’re on the cross, someone’s holding your hand down and driving a nail through your hand, okay? Like, it was his decision. That’s totally bad. Totally. But it’s a, it’s a distinction. Totally bad. Totally bad. I said totally. It, todos. It means completely. Okay? Okay. Means that there’s, it’s all there.

Complete. All the badness is there. When you’re carrying that cross, you know, it’s up to you. Yeah. To will yourself to take that next step, which is a totally different thing. Yeah. It’d be so hard 

Adam Minihan: to do. Physically, mentally, psychologically, yeah, 

David Niles: yeah. Because you [01:25:00] know, you know, like, all right. All of the other ones.

Like, time will pass and it will be over. The only way to get the carrying of the cross over is for you to make yourself take another step and then another step, you know, and like, you are the only one who can accomplish this task. 

Adam Minihan: Completely dehydrated and like, with lots 

David Niles: of blood. After having, right.

Been sweating blood been, like, basically whipped to death, and 

Adam Minihan: then thorns in your brain. And 24 hours after, like, having anything to eat. Yeah, 

David Niles: yeah, nothing to eat or drink. Yeah. And, like, oh, yeah. And, and, like, still getting whipped along the way. Anyway, that’s just 

Adam Minihan: Yeah, I think, yeah. I just So, let me ask you this.

Guy asks, like, okay, what, what should I do to make this week Like more efficacious on my end. What would you suggest? Because we’ve talked about, like, watching the Passion, reading the Gospels of the [01:26:00] Passion. Do you have any other suggestions? Yeah, 

David Niles: so, I do. I would say really think about what’s your schedule look like.

Okay because the once again, if you really think about it, everything we’ve talked about today is this association between activities and the soul. That Jesus is doing something that you’re doing. And what does that mean for, like, his interior disposition, right? That there is these different senses of Scripture, right?

And basically those different senses of Scripture are all being played out in the person of Christ as he’s going through the Gospels, right? And so those same principles apply to us in our daily life. So, it’s Holy Week. Think about your schedule. This is this is just, this is my opinion. This is not the week for having people over.

Okay? This, this is not This week, of all the weeks, there’s 51 other weeks this year. Okay? This is not the week to be doing those kinds of [01:27:00] things. This is a week for solitude. So I, I, I think it’s a week for, look at what your work schedule is. If you can, I think you should be doing all that you can to work, work less and have time for meditation.

Not everybody has the luxury of being able to take Good Friday off. If, if you have the time, vacation time, take Good Friday off every year, put it on your calendar. Okay. We don’t work on Good Friday for those of us who can. Some people don’t have a choice. Right. Right. But we just, we, we want to do what we can during Holy Week.

That way we can make ourselves present at the liturgies that happen. Attend, you want to attend all the liturgies this week. All that are available. The chrism, if you have small children, the chrism mass can be maybe a challenge. This is like an hour and a half, two hours long. Yeah, and sometimes it’s late in the evening.

But you want to just be present. [01:28:00] For like of all of the year, all of the weeks throughout the year, this is the one for meditation. This is the one for confession. So definitely, even if you went to confession yesterday, like go again. Like really think hard on your sins. Thank you Think hard about it.

All of the shortcomings we have every day. Okay, John Paul the second went to confession every day and Probably like way better than us, way better than you, you know, whoever you are So that that’s what I would say is lean into the sacraments Really think about your schedule this week And what is essential as we really want to take advantage of the graces that Holy Week brings us offers to us and this ponderance, because doing Holy Week well will be the key ingredient to doing Easter well, okay?

The [01:29:00] better we do Holy Week, the more we enter into Christ’s passion and meditation and the more we realize how, like, our, our part In his passion, and we all, it’s like, it’s me. The reason he’s doing all these things is, is I did it. I did that to him. So the more we can have time and leisure to enter into those you know, these like, profound, these sacred mysteries, yes, exactly, and just really relish them, be thankful for them, the better we will be In Easter, because we’re an Easter people.

We’re not a, we’re not a Holy Week people. We’re actually an Easter people, okay? We’re not all about Holy Week. Holy Week though is essential to understanding the goodness of Easter. And because we’re so into Easter, we need to do Holy Week well. 

Adam Minihan: That’s right. Yeah, that was going to be my suggestion as well, is like, make sure to try to take off a good Friday.

Huh. And if you can, Holy [01:30:00] Thursday. I, 

David Niles: yeah you know, compromise, half day on Holy Thursday. Holy Thursday. I think that’s a, however you 

Adam Minihan: want, however, whatever you can do, but, but like and, and really like go to the station at the cross at 3 p. m. on Fridays have Friday look different in your home.

David Niles: That’s what I was trying to get at right there is that the whole week should be different. That’s what I meant. Look at your schedule. I’m glad you said, said it that way. That’s obvious. It’s pretty obvious way to put it. But you nailed it. 

Adam Minihan: Why do it the obvious way when you do it the roundabout way? Right.

Like John Paul 

David Niles: II. Okay, he was always doing that. John Paul, get to the point! But yes, this week should be different from all the other weeks. Your kids should know it’s different. Like this is not a week for dessert. This is, this is a week of austerity. Right? And it should be a penitential week. It’s, it’s a, and because those penances, they help us connect.

We have so [01:31:00] many comforts and all those comforts do are distract us from really connecting with the passion. I don’t know. 

Adam Minihan: That’s what I would say. I think this is good. I’m so excited to be at Easter 

David Niles: people. Yeah, dude, I’m, I’m ready for it to be over. I’m excited. What an opportunity. But thy will be done.

What an opportunity. But thy will be done. To like, love the Lord. Every moment. That’s right. That’s right. Especially Easter.

About the author, Adam

Adam is the Director of Communications for the Diocese of Tulsa and Eastern Oklahoma, CEO of St. Michael Catholic Radio, Co-host of TCMS, Author from Ascension Press, Husband and Father of 5 children.

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